I've never been the type of person who can let things go very easily. I hold onto relationships, hurt and anger too tightly and let it nuzzle into a part of my heart that makes me scared and cynical. People always say things to me like "just let it go" or "just stop thinking about it" and I've never been able to truly grasp the simplicity of doing that.
The fact that I am now smack in the middle of my twenties, I find myself self reflecting even more than normal, thinking about the kind of person I am and the one I want to be. I often find myself looking back on the last couple years and finally understanding why things had to happen. I have an amazing family, amazing friends and a beautiful life and I never would have expected to be where I am. However, I got here because of the things that caused hurt and that caused anger and that makes it all worth it.
Recently I experienced something that helped me take a step forward in letting go of anger and it felt amazing. I felt like a piece of my heart healed right there in that moment. The simplest act helped me to take a deep breath and let it go, and it was something that I had been wanting for so long. I want to be one of those people who trusts God so deeply and genuinely that when life throws me for a loop I can take a deep breath and let it go, because I know it's all a part of my story.
Knowing that I am not there yet, I am going to embrace where I am at. I always push myself to love and walk alongside people for exactly where they are at. I don't know why I don't give myself this same sort love. Until I figure out how to just breath and let things go in the moment, this will be what I work on. To be able to know and accept that I am where I am in life, and in the woman that I am, and although I know I will grow and change, I am going to enjoy who I am right now.
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